1. One dead husband (no pity party please, my brain hurts as is)
2. One divorced husband (thanks mainly to above reference)
3. Three children who haven't caused irreparable damage to themselves, and since two of them are teenagers, I would have to put this into the list of MAJOR accomplishments.
4. A close friendship with spellcheck (my brain is slow thanks to accomplishment #1.)
5. I make coffee! This seems like a small one, but it's taken me 40 years now to make a decent pot of coffee. I just finally got too broke to keep buying it. Huge motivation!
6. I have 4 cats. Enough said
7. I own a car and I have beautiful things placed in a rented home. They make me happy.
8. I am happy. But... I am a little crazy still (see #1) so I am not yet certain if this happy is "real". Is it fleeting? Will I look back in three years and wonder how I could have still been so crazy as to think I was happy? Does it really matter anyway, as long as I am happy RIGHT NOW, and I am not hurting anybody?
9. I stopped drinking so much. (REF #1) No AA, just dragging my head out of pained arse.
10. I am cooking, again. It's not great yet, but then again it never really was, I just used to not burn stuff ALL the time. I am going to learn how to really cook though.
What do I want to do in the next year?
Nothing.
I just want to stop being so timid that I am afraid to do anything.
When I think of something I want to do, I shall write it down and not be too afraid to commit to it. Like the cooking. I am going to look for a cookbook. I just saw the Julia Child movie (now you can reference my title. I am behind on lots of things. For instance, I never really knew who she was at all. I'm not a total idiot, I knew the name, but not the person. I loved the movie, I loved that she couldn't cook till later in life, and I love the fact that she screwed up a lot, learned and got better. I screw up. A lot.)
As soon as I figure out how private this really is, I will post more. On to breakfast and COFFEE! I love coffee!
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